Yes, I'm still working. And hating it.
It's been a while since I posted. Yes, I'm still working on chapter 14. But very, very slowly.
I could give a bunch of reasons, but the big one—the granddaddy—is that I've written myself into a corner. Done it quite deliberately, too. There's a scene that I need to write that I quite strongly don't want to write. But I do need to write it…so I've pushed myself into a space where I can't go on with the rest until this one is done.
I'm talking about writing about Iku's home life. If you've read chapter 13, you can probably guess why I might not be keen to go there.
I'm working on it. Five or six hundred words done. It's pretty nasty material—or at least, I hope so. (There's very little point if it isn't nasty.) I'm finding that I'll take almost any excuse to work on something else—for example, right now I'm writing this message instead of working—but, when I can't avoid it, I'm writing it. And feeling somewhat as if I've been wallowing in shit.
God, I want this scene to be over.
posted by Angus @ 8:58 am
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7 Comments:
In another fic series that I read the author had a somewhat similar problem. She kept saying she didn't want to write a torture scene. Finally someone told her not to and she managed to get the important bit across by having a couple of other characters do the first aid/repairs on the character who had been tortured. It was all off camera so to speak. I don't know if something similar would work for you in this case or not.
Joan
i went through something similar recently while trying to work on my book. my main character is raped, albeit not the kind you usually think of, but still rape, and its kind of violent. i'm not sure why i made the choice to actually write the scene, rather than just the aftereffects, but i found that the story is stronger for it to have it described. i found a happy (hah, hardly...) medium where its not x-rated but you definitely know what's going on.
i do have to admit, though, that i had a huge problem writing that scene. i tried to avoid it, do other things, but i just realized the story couldn't progress naturally without the scene being written. so i sat down one day, and didn't let myself get up for anything i didn't absolutely have to do nor let myself quit, until it was finished. i cried afterward, but...its finished, and i was able to write freely again.
it's going to be a hard scene to write, and i wish you the best. think of it kind of like...pulling off a really sticky bandaid: its painful as hell pulling it off slowly, and its also painful ripping it off all at once...but which would you rather have? long drawn out pain or one rip that'll burn for a bit but at least its over? sit down one day and don't let yourself come up for air until the scene is written. then go cuddle up with your favorite things/people in front of the tv or whatever would make you happy again.
--Amanda (i found my blogger account!)
I've been there before. The way I look at it in situations like this is that the abuse is already a part of the character. Chronicling it serves to expose the abuser for what he or she truly is. It's a weird perspective, but it makes it a lot easier for me to write things that I'm squeamish about.
I've never commented in your blog before, but I've been reading Sailor Moon 4200 for... how many years has it been since you started? Still enjoying it as much as ever :)
HEY!!! I really really REALLY love this story. Its really fun but kinda sad. I mean I cant believe everyones dead. Well I hope you finish this chapter soon, cause I cant wait!! When are you planning on finishing the story? I saw it was published in 1999. I cant wait that long! Well please email me at chrisrocks-@hotmail.com. Can you give me some spoilers please. :)
Just let Iku-chan's mother know that when her role in this little play has been fulfilled that her ass is mine if none of the other readers get to her first. No offense to you Angus-sama. I love angst, but I have a strong desire to see that people like that brutally mauled with a fire poker.
~Fenris Blackwell
Fear not. I have my own plans for her, as it happens. :)
Been there, done that. But hey, I usually think of it as a lower stage in an build-up to something awesome, like having Iku fight an apocalyptic monster with her mother's head across the surface of the sun or something. Eat that heat, biotch xD.
But in summary, I feel ya. Writing is work, and it's not all fun =/.
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